~cat scratches~

my room is a mess and my cat scratched my chest

and my wrists and my thighs

and i don’t know why

but every night i cry

as the voices in my mind

destroy me from inside

saying, “you’ll never get better”

so i go and write a letter

about the things i never said

and i put it beside my bed

but then i shove it in a drawer

because the things i wrote before

mean nothing anymore

and i lay on the floor

feeling numb to the core

i hear a knock on the door

it’s my mother

there’s worry in her eyes

as she cries

and asks if i’m alright

i lie and say i’m fine

but she comes a little closer

and sees the emptiness in my eyes

and the scratches on my chest

and my wrists and my thighs

she grabs my bleeding wrist

and shouts “what is this?!”

“they’re just cat scratches, mom!”

i lie, and then i’m gone