The Pit of My Stomach Came Out of My Mouth

I can hear you rummaging in my mind

Slamming around with your profanity

Drowning me with unnecessary anguish

Suffocating me with thoughts that aren't my own –

Or are they?

Distorting my reflection in the mirror,

I don’t see myself anymore

My eyes –

My face –

My smile –

They have run away

Tired of hearing your voice over and over in my head

Over and over again

You are a Failure

Over and over again

You are Not Enough

Over and over again

You are Adequate

Over and over again

You are Repulsive

Over and over again

You are Powerless

Over and over again

You are Afraid

Over and over again

You are an Imposter

Over and over again

You are Nothing –

You have consumed my soul

Tainted my thoughts

But if I am furious with you then I am Enraged,

with myself

I am you, you are me